Thoughts on disappointment

It seems to be the theme of our life these days…things just aren’t going as planned.

We didn’t plan on Michael dying.

We didn’t plan on struggling so hard to find a house.

We didn’t plan on our finances being so tight.

And now we are waiting…waiting to hear about another potentially major life change. Knowing that there isn’t anything we can do to make it happen. So we wait. And wait some more. In anticipation, but withholding hope because we have been rocked by disappointment so often these days.

In fact, disappointment seems to be a daily occurrence at our home. I hate to say that. I hate to admit how hard it’s been. I’m too much of an optimist most of the time to really tell you how hard things are.

But over the course of time I have learned not to discount the importance of disappointment. In my humanness I want to shrug it off. God’s in control, I say. And He is. But that doesn’t change the fact that disappointment exists. It exists in the weight of a sinking stomach, in deflated dreams, in the ache of unmet anticipation.

Sometimes I need to acknowledge it more. Give it validity. Because if I don’t, am I really dealing with it? Or am I just pushing it down? Because I don’t want to live a life that’s just on the surface. I want to be content down to the depths of my soul, and if that’s where I’m hiding the disappointment, then I need to root it out.

I can’t always dismiss it, so instead, today, I choose to acknowledge it.

I am disappointed.

But I won’t stay there.

Because tomorrow is a new day, and as Scripture says, weeping may endure for a night but joy comes in the morning…and my hope is in the Lord!

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3 thoughts on “Thoughts on disappointment

  • March 15, 2013 at 3:17 pm
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    wow friend. i feel like the Lord had me stumble upon your blog today…I just wanted to tell you I love your heart. I can so so relate to all of your words today. I KNOW so well the feelings of disapppintment, and am even in the middle of a lot of that right now…i lost my Dad about 5 weeks ago, and then lost a baby to miscarriage last week. so needless to say, I feel like you are speaking my language right now. I so agree that its good to “embrace the disappointment”, and we CAN do that…BECAUSE we know who is in charge, and the Hope that we can have on the other end of these feelings. Becaause He is so good and loves us so. 🙂 Anyways, sorry for the long note…just wanted you to know I appreciate your words and can relate. love and blessings to you friend…

    • March 15, 2013 at 3:38 pm
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      Thank you for your kind words and understanding, and I am so sorry for your losses. Some days it is hard to feel the Lord’s goodness, but we can hold onto what we know is Truth. No matter our circumstances. I’ll be praying for you, friend.

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