I have identified the bane of my existence.
There is very little that I hate as much as getting up in the morning. You would think that after 25 years (20 of which I have had to rise early for school, work, or barn chores…sometimes very early) I would be used to it. But no. Every morning, I dread having to pull back the covers, wipe the sleep from my eyes and step out into the cold air.
Of course, my hatred of mornings usually eases with the increase in temperature as spring and summer arrive…but easing doesn’t necessarily mean that it becomes easy. I have struggled in vain to make myself a morning person. I have formulated motivations, challenges, rewards, and more to rise early. And yet, every morning, I groan and hit the snooze button a few too many times.
I’m beginning to wonder if I should just give up…give up on trying to be someone I’m not.
I do believe in being myself.
Although I also believe in dying to self.
So do I continue to try to be a morning person? To rise with joy and enthusiasm for the day? Or do I drag myself from under the covers with a “cute frowny face” as Husband says. I drag myself through my morning routine, and as minimal as it is, I still manage to forget things, like putting on a belt, or eating breakfast, or opening the windows on the pleasant day.
It seems like life would be so much better if mornings were a delight instead of a disaster. But how do I create that? Because nothing I’ve tried seems to work.
I have come to the realization that I cannot do this on my own. Nothing I am doing has worked, and that isn’t likely to change. So today I want to start a new approach.
I want to learn what the Lord has to say about mornings. Then I’ll go from there. I don’t know where this journey will take me, but at least it will be more fulfilling than my futile attempts to change myself. BibleGateway.com reports 210 instances of the word “morning” in the NIV translation of the Bible. I’m going to make it my mission to read and learn from each and every reference. Starting here…
“God called the light ‘day,’ and the darkness he called ‘night.’ And there was evening, and there was morning—the first day.” – Gen. 1:5